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Otakufreek1331
Audre / A.R.Apple
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Hello everybody! Well, what do I want to write about myself? Hmmm....

I'm 23 yrs. old, I identify as being genderqueer/pansexual, currently single for now, somewhat of an amateur artist and writer, huge fan of art/animation/creativeness in general, currently a student/trainee with Job Corps, studying to become a Certified Nursing Assistant but aiming to become more than a trained butt wiper, and that's about all for now.

Peace out ya'll!
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Just wanted to let everyone know, that I'm at home with my mother and stepfather for the time being. I had to come back from Job Corps on 'medical separation', which basically means that I have a six month window in order to get healthy again and return. If not, my fifty-five percent completion of my CNA trade will disappear, and I will have to start from scratch. Lovely, isn't it?

Basically, during the summer I learned that I contracted an STI known as HPV, (human papillomavirus). At first, I thought the most I had to worry about was genital warts...but that wasn't the case. I ended up having pre-cancerous cells, and abnormal areas of tissue on my cervix and the surrounding areas.

My gynecologist had me do a cervical LEEP, which is a surgery that removed a portion of my cervix in order to remove abnormal tissue and for further testing. They also cauterized the surrounding abnormal tissue, and so that was hopefully it.

I went to Job Corps in Texas, with instructions from my doctor to do a follow up pap test within four months. I felt fine, and was doing well with my trade and getting settled into the routine and life that was now my present. Then, it came time for my follow up pap. Took it, and the results came back...and they weren't what I hoped.

The results showed that I now had high lesions, and clear signs that I am cancerous. I have cervical cancer. Damn.

To be honest, I'm scared, stressed, angry at myself for not being more careful about my partners, wishing I'd done things differently, and I can't do anything. Not only that, but I recently learned that my grandmother Debbie died of cervical cancer. I know it's not genetic, but it still worries.

The good news is, that it was found early with me, and I have a better chance.
This Friday, I'm going to my doctor to discuss my options. Yet, I already know what it is that I'm going to do. After the initial shock, I did some research, and decided that I want to have a hysterectomy. The reason I chose this operation is that it not only has a better chance of removing all cancerous or abnormal tissue, but has a quicker recovery time then if I did chemotherapy or radiation. I had to consider not only my best chance of removing the cancer, but also how quickly I can recover in order to return to Job Corps so that I can continue with my trade training, and begin a second trade and finish it, too.

The upsides; I will hopefully remove all cancer and lower the chance of it returning, have no more periods, and survive.

The downsides; I will go through forced menopause, learn to deal with a loss of most of my body's ability to produce necessary hormones, and not be able to have children.

That's the part that saddens me the most, but it's okay. I'd rather be alive and able to adopt or become a foster parent, than be sickly and attempt to have children with a body that could cause me to miscarry or infect them with HPV.

I just wanted to share what was going on with everyone, not only to inform my friends and loved ones, but to let others learn from my mistake. I regret not being more careful, because my carelessness has led me to lose so much.

Hopefully, others may learn from my wrongs, and avoid this outcome.  

Thank you for reading, and feel free to share this with others, because I feel that more people need to understand just how costly sharing yourself can be.

It's not just your virginity or you body you're giving away, but possibly you life. Think about it.
  • Mood: Stuck
  • Listening to: All My Music (from Country to Rock to J-pop)
  • Reading: Webcomics/Yaoi and BL Manga
  • Watching: Mostly whatever shows amuse me!
  • Playing: With fate I suppose. . .
  • Eating: Pasta and Coconut-Ginger Sugar Cookies I baked.
  • Drinking: Water

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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner 8 hours ago  Student General Artist
you're very welcome!
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Gekroent Featured By Owner 15 hours ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch! :)
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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Student General Artist
Awesome!! Looking forward to it!! 
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kuabci Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Professional Filmographer
Thanks ever so for watching!  More arts on the way.
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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Student General Artist
okie dokie
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PieGeo190 Featured By Owner 6 days ago
Your welcome :)
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salocemon Featured By Owner 6 days ago   Artist
okay, wait. B-) (Cool) Meow :3 
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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Student General Artist
Oh my!! Thank you!!! :iconhugsplz:
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PieGeo190 Featured By Owner 6 days ago
Happy Early Birthday :) :iconcakeplz:
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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2014  Student General Artist
You're welcome! :iconismileplz:
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Bambiiie Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the watch~!!! Bunny Emoji-68 (Bouncy) [V4] Bunny Emoji-68 (Bouncy) [V4] Bunny Emoji-68 (Bouncy) [V4] *Free Icon/Emote* Halloween Pusheen 
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Misuru Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave :D:D 
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leexz Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2014  Student General Artist
hi there ^^ thank you very much for watching :thanks:
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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2014  Student General Artist
I know...I may need to find a new artist and start from scratch...thanks for reading though
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salocemon Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2014   Artist
hello sorry, the long time not updated smackjeeves comic calledIf "Someone Cared" :(
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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2014  Student General Artist
aww shucks, you're welcome! 
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Fudzia Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Aww thank you for the fav and the watch~ ♥
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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2014  Student General Artist
you're welcome! 
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NynjaKat Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2014  Student General Artist
draw whatever you want, just keep pushing yourself to do more each time. Draw more often and spend longer drawing things but make sure you have fun with it :)
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SketchyRae Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014
Thanks so much for watching me~! :iconblushuplz:
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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Student General Artist
That's adorable!! And, you're welcome!!
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Torheit-die-Katze Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2014  Student Filmographer
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Thanks a lot for the fav :la:
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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2014  Student General Artist
you're welcome!
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Kogane-chan Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2014   Digital Artist
Thank you very much for the watch ^^
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Otakufreek1331 Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014  Student General Artist
welcome!
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